I have always adored Diana Ross. I am a hopeless romantic, love, in my opinion was meant to be true. Her songs, which are continuously played in my car, at an absurd volume, while I belt along- wildly off key- are the complete and utter voice of love and loss. A thought I have pondered heavily the last few days. Thoughts of all sorts have been weighing heavily lately- I have had a lingering feeling, one I can't really place a word on. The last few weeks -I have just felt off, not fully myself. Tonight, while driving home I was once again listening to Diana. For a moment I left the lyrics behind and lost myself in thought. It suddenly occurred to me that I have not taken the time to do the things that keep me in touch with my "self". I then recognized that it is up to me to remain focused, I must re-center myself. Thoughts then whirled and twirled- NOW is it. NOW is the time, now is the best time... I reminded myself of what I find to be important and most importantly- I am not meant to be rescued by anyone but myself. I am now filled with excitement and purpose for each day to arrive. No more "laters", just, "nows". I can not wait to revisit my own strength. Although I am a huge fan of this song- I will no longer sing it with longing- I don't need rescuing, I just need myself. I hope that through all that is sure to come, especially with the most hectic of seasons vastly approaching, I can hold on to this feeling.
I wonder, is it just me that feels as if I am sometimes fading away to the business that is life, or is this something that just happens? How do you ensure that your interests and feelings remain a priority? How do others re-center when they do feel out of balance? The only bit of advice I can share is to just breathe.